exploring life before and after medication, the loss of intensity, and the strange calm that follows. A journey from madness to mellow. Bittersweet trade-off between wild intensity and calm, ordinary life.I still ask myself what I need more—to be with the man I love or with the son I love.
What is the cost of this freedom?
Ordinary life of a normal person Read Post »
A lady finally meets a psychiatrist who cuts through her misdiagnoses (Biporar? Borderline? ADHD?), she gets the shocking truth: she’s just a “banal creative hysteric”, just a dramatic creative soul. No pills, no disorders—just a hysteroid personality type, craving admiration and creation. Now she’s torn: relief or disappointment?What is the cost of this freedom?
Completely banal creative hysteric Read Post »
Over a fancy breakfast, there’s an encounter with celebrity-turned-propagandist. Once, he scolded Bernays’ manipulation tactics; now, he deploys them, velvet words masking war. From Moscow secret bars to the red glow of the Kremlin, sickly perfection and impeccable beauty becomes oppressive, and truth slips through polished rhetoric.
What is the cost of this freedom?
Nightingale’s Lies, Michelin Mornings and Flawless Moscow Read Post »
Delayed flights, vanished luggage, lost passport, airport meltdown, French-Canadian bureaucracy, grief, stubborn optimism, and a ‘little black dress’. Real-time chronicling of a chaotic route via Toronto, Montreal and Dubai with Emirates as the unexpected hero and Air Canada as the ultimate mess-up.I still ask myself what I need more—to be with the man I love or with the son I love.
What is the cost of this freedom?
Flight Vancouver – Moscow Read Post »
Disguised behind sunglasses and a Tilley hat, she lives as “Lesbian Brenda” – hiding from coworkers, motherhood, and expired documents. Her children prepare to fly alone to Moscow. One never to come back to Canada. She’s blocked her mother and her ex. It feels like living in a The Academy of Fools sketch – a clown released from the Cuckoo’s Nest.What is the cost of this freedom?
Brenda the Lesbian Blocks Her Loved Ones Read Post »
A marketplace purchase spirals into a surreal encounter with three strange men, a house of fake Klimt paintings and gaudy antiques and a reincarnation of David Bowie if he was 70. The real horror? Realizing why we ignore danger: fear of rudeness outweighs survival instinct. J just laughs and fixes everything.
The Bed Frame Story Read Post »
A messy Starbucks barista and her germaphobic partner clash over laundry, hygiene, and stubborn habits – boots get hosed down, clothes are “arrested,”. How would love survive if two people are so different? Or does the negative attract the positive and thus evolve into something stronger?
Arrested Clothes and Hose-Washed Boots Read Post »
New Year feels like a melting snowman losing its buttons. But there’s J to hold everything together and put back the buttons. New Year in Moscow full of family and funny traditions – is dearly missed while living as an immigrant in Canada. New Year here is too quiet. The kids are both adored and maddening. J is becoming a new family now.
1st Day of a New Year Read Post »
Reflective story about finding unexpected joy in taking out the trash, complete with backyard bears, folding boxes at Starbucks, and the quiet pride of adulthood.
Recycling Meditation, & My Backyard Bear Read Post »
A peaceful, rainy stroll turns into a panic attack – deepest fear – worms. Those harmless, wriggling creatures that invade the sidewalks after rain. Tiptoeing between them in horror, romance rain is gone. So why are we afraid of worms?